reclaiming

life … my first time juicing without nessa. the loneliness that washed over me when i couldn’t bend down and give her the pulp is overwhelming. no putting part of the juice back into the fibres for my little girl. to help her digestion. to give my baby vitamins. just a bin. my baby is gone. i am paralyzed. trying to come out, to move – but the thickness of the air holds me back. my baby girl. is gone